That the month of February just seems to always suck.
I seem to always be depressed this time of year and get into a "funk" initiated by HUs need to be selfish.
We had it out today and though I think maybe(?) he gets my frustration and anger about his newly acquired Harley Davidson and the manner in which the sale went down, I just feel like if he had to do it all over again even after our talk, he would. He says he'll work on things, time will tell.
I am at the point where I feel like we've evolved and changed so much as a couple and not for the better. He's off doing his thing...I'm left feeling like I should be doing ... something too. We're just not on the same page about anything. His circle of friends are his circle of friends. And though I try to be involved and like them, many are just crude and obnoxious. Not the kind of folks I want to spend my time with and I don't understand why he does. Well...I do understand, because he's the same way. I probably hurt his feelings today when I told him to grow up that he's not a teenage boy living in his mom's house, so stop acting like one when around his buds....but honestly, I'm tired of feeling like I married a boy who refuses to grow up. Time to be a man - I need a MAN in my life.
I started doing more on my own a bit last year - while I had a good time out doing things more on my own, I was left feeling even more separated emotionally from my husband. Not how I want things to be. At all.
He's totally ok with it and thinks life's grand, though. So...as long as he's happy, right?
I just don't think he'll change, and I can't just shut off my emotions - though it's getting easier to not care like I used to.
Time will tell how things go from here...
Sunday, February 7, 2016
Sunday, January 31, 2016
Getting better about updates, only 2 years' time elapsed this time!
More changes occurred in the last 2 years.
My grandson Matthew was born August 26, 2014 - and he's been an absolute JOY! I love him and all of his curiosity, growth, development and FUN! I knew being a grandparent would be fun, but nothing could have prepared me for just how much I love my "lil buddy"! :) Michelle and Brandon are great parents, I just wish they could get out on their own. Here are his 6 month and 1 year pictures <3
John is still attending St.Louis Community College and has at least one more semester I believe. In other news regarding John, he worked at Harry & David at the mall during the holidays and just recently passed some big test to become a judge for Magic The Gathering (card game) tournaments. He said there's only 10k people in the world that hold that status and he's now one of them. :)
Stephanie reached out to Eric in the last two years sporadically and now she has moved back to St Louis and lives with her boyfriend and his mom not far from our house. I hope things will improve with their relationship.
Work has been amazing. My boss retired in July 2015 and I was selected as the Director of Training to take her position when she left. She's now working part time for me training tellers while the other staff trainers and I gear up in training all staff on our new core processing system upgrade that will go live on May 2nd, 2016. This is HUGE. EVERYTHING we do touches our core processing system so EVERYTHING is changing. My boss is great, too. He leaves me to work autonomously yet supports me any way he can.
Eric has been busy traveling on his motorcycle and we have had some trips together the past year as well. He's now in the process of looking for yet a bigger/better motorcycle (has to have a Harley Davidson *eyeroll*) and I anticipate he'll be gone even more on his own. I don't ride motorcycles, and really wish he wouldn't, but it's his thing. I feel like I have no choice but to support this "hobby" of his, but I really hate when he's gone on these trips. It's dangerous, he does stupid things when around his friends, and I want to be experiencing things with him. It leaves me feeling really lonely and afraid, yet I have to let him do his thing as well. The compromise is WE do things together as well, it's not ALL about his trips with his motorcycle friends. Last year was a better balance of that - I took a trip on my own as well last year too - so it helps me that it's more balanced.
Last blog entry we were excited to take our first cruise. The following year, we took another cruise and enjoyed it just as much! Our Eastern Caribbean cruise took us to Princess Cays, St. Marten, St. Thomas, and Nassau, Bahamas. It was as amazing and fun as the first cruise we went on. :) We also took a trip in July 2015 to Carthage, MO to visit the Precious Moments Chapel and museum. Something I've always wanted to see/do, but never have, even though it's not too far from St Louis! On the way there, we stopped off at Cape Girardeau, took in a civil war museum in Carthage and then went on to Arkansas where we stayed in a lovely little cabin in the woods. :) We hiked, visited a civil war battlefield, and an art museum while in AR. It was one of the best trips we've had together! In October 2015, we went to Memphis, TN. Also another place we've both wanted to visit but never have. Again, we weren't disappointed. Spent time on historic Beale Street, visited the Rock n Soul museum, the Gibson guitar factory/museum, and historic Sun Studios. Really great BBQ near our hotel and another great BBQ meal at BB Kings on Beale St. :)
I visited my friend Angela in mid-October 2015 and we went to the Hamilton Pool in a little town near Austin, TX. We went to San Antonio and saw The Alamo, toured San Antonio (by ourselves with a tour guide) from a double-decker tour bus, and ate at a wonderful Mexican restaurant where I had THE BEST strawberry margarita ever! We also had a baked potato loaded as big as our heads with whatever BBQ and other stuff we wanted on it for lunch before we visited the Dallas Museum of Art - which was the true highlight of my visit (other than the company of course)! The DMA had an interactive "scavenger hunt" and "zombie apocalypse quest" which led us through the entire museum and gave us "points" for all things we did and saw. Spent the virtual points in the gift shop for some souvenir swag! SO MUCH FUN! I'd like to go back again this year...we'll see!
It's been a busy and FULL two years! Hope to keep this blog a bit more updated than every two years! LOL
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Wow...it's been THREE years?!?
Good grief! It's been THREE years since I last put up a blog entry!
So...updates!
November 2012 - Stephanie went back to live with her mom in Las Vegas. I love her, but that was the best thing that could have happened for me and my sanity. The departure was abrupt and she didn't leave on good terms, so we haven't heard from or talked to her since she left more than a year ago. Some days I really miss her. Other days I'm thankful to have my/our life back. I do hope for Eric's sake that one day she apologizes to him and that they can have a real relationship at some point...
October 2013 - I transferred from the managing a Branch staff of 10, to being the Staff Trainer at the Credit Union. (22 years with the CU as of March 9th!) :) It's been a whirlwind, yet a phenomenal change. Again, I felt like I needed a change and when this opportunity became available, I couldn't pass up the chance to transition out of the Branches and into the "back office" way of life. It's been amazing. My boss is wonderful, the Teller Trainer that I work with is great, too. I couldn't ask for two more wonderful people to work with/for. No more weekends! I'm off every Saturday and Sunday, and I can truly work 9am-5pm. I don't bring work home with me like I used to, but am not afraid to work on things at home if it makes things easier for me while at work. Each trainee I work with has to go through a 4 week training session with me to learn their job as an FSR (Financial Services Representative). It's now March 2nd and I have one more week with my current trainees until they head to their respective branches. As of March 7th, I will have trained a total of 4 new FSRs. I really enjoy it, and hope to enhance the training over the next year.
January 2014 - I'm going to be ... a Grandma! O.o Nothing could have prepared me for this news. I half expected it when Michelle moved in with her boyfriend. I guess I had hoped it wouldn't be this soon. I kept telling her: "I'm too young to be a Grandma!" but I guess she didn't hear me. She's due on September 3rd and there have been complications early on in the pregnancy. Apparently, she was exposed to the CMV virus around Christmas time, when she was likely already pregnant. This causes some concern for the baby's development. Thankfully, we just found out that the insurance company will pay for a treatment option to hopefully prevent the spread of the virus to the baby. She'll need an amnio-test at 21 weeks to be sure, but we're hopeful that the initial dose of the medication will be sufficient to keep the baby safe from harm. Apparently, there can be some serious and severe issues with brain/neurological development if untreated, or potential hearing/vision issues after birth. She has the treatment next Thursday, March 6th, and a follow up appointment with her fetal/maternal specialist on March 10th. I'm getting used to the idea of being a Grandma with each ultrasound and seeing the baby's development progress. I just pray everything will continue on smoothly for her and that the baby is born healthy this fall.
Future plans: May 31, 2014 - John graduates from High School! He plans to attend St. Louis Community College in the fall. I'm taking him and a friend of his to ACEN in May as well. :)
July 15, 2014 - This date marks the 10 year anniversary of Eric and I getting married! :) We decided to take a nice vacation again this year, and started looking at cruises. We quickly found that cruises in July are more expensive than cruises in April, so we moved our trip to the spring instead. We'll be on a Princess cruise ship (the LOVE BOAT!) and will be taking a Western Caribbean cruise with ports in Mexico, Belize, and Honduras. Can't WAIT! Just need our renewed passports to get here!!!
Guess that's all for now! Lots happened in the last couple of years, too much to type out, but that's the most recent news that's "fit to print". :)
So...updates!
November 2012 - Stephanie went back to live with her mom in Las Vegas. I love her, but that was the best thing that could have happened for me and my sanity. The departure was abrupt and she didn't leave on good terms, so we haven't heard from or talked to her since she left more than a year ago. Some days I really miss her. Other days I'm thankful to have my/our life back. I do hope for Eric's sake that one day she apologizes to him and that they can have a real relationship at some point...
October 2013 - I transferred from the managing a Branch staff of 10, to being the Staff Trainer at the Credit Union. (22 years with the CU as of March 9th!) :) It's been a whirlwind, yet a phenomenal change. Again, I felt like I needed a change and when this opportunity became available, I couldn't pass up the chance to transition out of the Branches and into the "back office" way of life. It's been amazing. My boss is wonderful, the Teller Trainer that I work with is great, too. I couldn't ask for two more wonderful people to work with/for. No more weekends! I'm off every Saturday and Sunday, and I can truly work 9am-5pm. I don't bring work home with me like I used to, but am not afraid to work on things at home if it makes things easier for me while at work. Each trainee I work with has to go through a 4 week training session with me to learn their job as an FSR (Financial Services Representative). It's now March 2nd and I have one more week with my current trainees until they head to their respective branches. As of March 7th, I will have trained a total of 4 new FSRs. I really enjoy it, and hope to enhance the training over the next year.
January 2014 - I'm going to be ... a Grandma! O.o Nothing could have prepared me for this news. I half expected it when Michelle moved in with her boyfriend. I guess I had hoped it wouldn't be this soon. I kept telling her: "I'm too young to be a Grandma!" but I guess she didn't hear me. She's due on September 3rd and there have been complications early on in the pregnancy. Apparently, she was exposed to the CMV virus around Christmas time, when she was likely already pregnant. This causes some concern for the baby's development. Thankfully, we just found out that the insurance company will pay for a treatment option to hopefully prevent the spread of the virus to the baby. She'll need an amnio-test at 21 weeks to be sure, but we're hopeful that the initial dose of the medication will be sufficient to keep the baby safe from harm. Apparently, there can be some serious and severe issues with brain/neurological development if untreated, or potential hearing/vision issues after birth. She has the treatment next Thursday, March 6th, and a follow up appointment with her fetal/maternal specialist on March 10th. I'm getting used to the idea of being a Grandma with each ultrasound and seeing the baby's development progress. I just pray everything will continue on smoothly for her and that the baby is born healthy this fall.
Future plans: May 31, 2014 - John graduates from High School! He plans to attend St. Louis Community College in the fall. I'm taking him and a friend of his to ACEN in May as well. :)
July 15, 2014 - This date marks the 10 year anniversary of Eric and I getting married! :) We decided to take a nice vacation again this year, and started looking at cruises. We quickly found that cruises in July are more expensive than cruises in April, so we moved our trip to the spring instead. We'll be on a Princess cruise ship (the LOVE BOAT!) and will be taking a Western Caribbean cruise with ports in Mexico, Belize, and Honduras. Can't WAIT! Just need our renewed passports to get here!!!
Guess that's all for now! Lots happened in the last couple of years, too much to type out, but that's the most recent news that's "fit to print". :)
Monday, February 7, 2011
Some days I wonder why I was put here...
Ugh... took a half day off today. Planned to go to the grocery, and then come home and relax. Came home and Michelle was in a boy-induced-drama-filled-state of being. I had to try and calm her down. Then Eric texts me to take away Steph's phone. She's apparently not been turning in her classwork. I go to get her phone and she's wearing a halter top shirt (cut WAY low) which she said is a "dress". It's a hoochie mamma shirt that you would go clubbin' in. Needless to say, I told her she looked like a slut and she is NOT to wear that shirt outside of our house...ever. Her freakin' mom sent it to her?!?! Now her mom's texting Eric stating I need to apologize to her. EXCUSE ME?!? I'm here raisning YOUR daughter because you can't (or won't) and you're gonna tell me what to say in my home? Mind you, I didn't say she IS a slut, said she LOOKED like one wearing crap like that. She's not even 13 yet and runnin' around tryin' to look like she's 24. It's just awful, and I'm always the one sayin' what she's got on is inappropriate. (Maybe I'm just too much of a conservative prude... *sigh*)
Then I go to take Michelle to her night class and I hit a DOG... I've never hit anything in my life. I avoid squirrels and bunnies that jet out in front of my car, and tonight, with my already upset ready for a breakdown daughter in my car, I hit a freakin' DOG?!? :( :( :( I felt so horrible, but I couldn't bear to see if it was ok. I had to get her to class and we had to drop off her medicine to her dad's for tomorrow on the way too. She was hysterical and I'm just a mess right now.
I want to think I'm supposed to be the glue that holds all this crap together, but what do you do when the glue breaks down?!?
Then I go to take Michelle to her night class and I hit a DOG... I've never hit anything in my life. I avoid squirrels and bunnies that jet out in front of my car, and tonight, with my already upset ready for a breakdown daughter in my car, I hit a freakin' DOG?!? :( :( :( I felt so horrible, but I couldn't bear to see if it was ok. I had to get her to class and we had to drop off her medicine to her dad's for tomorrow on the way too. She was hysterical and I'm just a mess right now.
I want to think I'm supposed to be the glue that holds all this crap together, but what do you do when the glue breaks down?!?
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Yeah...apparently I can do that too...
I don't think there's anything I *can't* do.
Despite the fact that STEPHANIE didn't ask me to dye her hair, she knew I was going to do it. I guess Eric told her after HE asked me. Now...why would you go buy the dye for her and just ASSUME I would help her do it?? Obviously, he *expected* me to help her. Didn't ask if I would BEFORE he took her to go buy it. Guess I'm supposed to be thankful he asked at all.
Why doesn't he get that she doesn't need every single thing she wants the instant she wants it?
Oh well, it's done, and I'm an awesome person for dying her hair. I'm just an awesome person for continuing to live with the aggravation without goin' freakin' insane.
I'm just an awesome person.
I gave up my week of vacation time in March so my employee could go on vacation and take her son who has spring break the same week my kids do. It's been nothing but a headache since I told her she could have the time off. First she wanted to leave early on a Sat morning and return late on a Sat. Mind you, we just lost a part-time employee that worked every Saturday. SO yeah, why don't you just take two Saturdays off in a row, the rest of us will all work instead. Then it was a debate on whether or not any flight could leave in the afternoon. She INSISTED they ONLY leave in the early, early morning. I told her to get another travel agent because that's just not true. Then she finally conceded to the fact that there was (of course) a flight at 3pm they could take. Then last night, at 9:30pm, she texts me saying she can get a package from Tues to the following Wed and will that work?? Umm...doofus, I'm at HOME. I do not have access to the work calendar and have NO idea if anyone has time off. I'll have to check Monday. "But...OMG! They'll only hold the reservation until Sunday--what should I do?!?!" ... Me: "Book it and buy cancellation insurance, or wait until Monday when I can check" Her reply, "I never buy cancellation insurance, it's so expensive!" Ummm you're taking a $4-5k vacation, you can't afford a couple hundred more bucks??? I mean seriously...take a shorter time ON vacation (4-5 days instead of 7-8 maybe?) if you're that hard up for cash. Bottom line, she's ridiculous and selfish and just wants what she wants without any hassle.
I was born in the wrong era I think...how come I can't get what *I* want when I want it all the time and *I'm* always the one bending??
Good news though, no one else has vacation so she'll be happy again on Monday...
Despite the fact that STEPHANIE didn't ask me to dye her hair, she knew I was going to do it. I guess Eric told her after HE asked me. Now...why would you go buy the dye for her and just ASSUME I would help her do it?? Obviously, he *expected* me to help her. Didn't ask if I would BEFORE he took her to go buy it. Guess I'm supposed to be thankful he asked at all.
Why doesn't he get that she doesn't need every single thing she wants the instant she wants it?
Oh well, it's done, and I'm an awesome person for dying her hair. I'm just an awesome person for continuing to live with the aggravation without goin' freakin' insane.
I'm just an awesome person.
I gave up my week of vacation time in March so my employee could go on vacation and take her son who has spring break the same week my kids do. It's been nothing but a headache since I told her she could have the time off. First she wanted to leave early on a Sat morning and return late on a Sat. Mind you, we just lost a part-time employee that worked every Saturday. SO yeah, why don't you just take two Saturdays off in a row, the rest of us will all work instead. Then it was a debate on whether or not any flight could leave in the afternoon. She INSISTED they ONLY leave in the early, early morning. I told her to get another travel agent because that's just not true. Then she finally conceded to the fact that there was (of course) a flight at 3pm they could take. Then last night, at 9:30pm, she texts me saying she can get a package from Tues to the following Wed and will that work?? Umm...doofus, I'm at HOME. I do not have access to the work calendar and have NO idea if anyone has time off. I'll have to check Monday. "But...OMG! They'll only hold the reservation until Sunday--what should I do?!?!" ... Me: "Book it and buy cancellation insurance, or wait until Monday when I can check" Her reply, "I never buy cancellation insurance, it's so expensive!" Ummm you're taking a $4-5k vacation, you can't afford a couple hundred more bucks??? I mean seriously...take a shorter time ON vacation (4-5 days instead of 7-8 maybe?) if you're that hard up for cash. Bottom line, she's ridiculous and selfish and just wants what she wants without any hassle.
I was born in the wrong era I think...how come I can't get what *I* want when I want it all the time and *I'm* always the one bending??
Good news though, no one else has vacation so she'll be happy again on Monday...
Friday, January 21, 2011
Add a new job title...
Apparently, now I get to learn to be a hairdresser tomorrow. Stephanie just HAD to get hair dye at Walgreens...tonight. Mind you her hair is still QUITE red from the last dye job. Of course, Eric couldn't possibly tell her, no. Or even, not tonight. In fact, he told her he didn't think he'd take her tonight, but then did anyway! >.<
So, while he's out at some motorcycle race thing tomorrow, I'll be stuck at home dying her hair, which I've never done before in my LIFE. I sure hope it doesn't turn neon green... *sigh*
FML...
While I'm the subject of feeling sorry for myself, Eric's still just spending spending spending and can't be STILL and do nothing for even one weekend. Tomorrow he's going to some motorcycle thing at some arena. Next weekend another ghosthunt. Maybe it's post holiday blues, maybe it's just par for the course, but it sure does feel like late Jan to early Mar suck for me historically speaking.
On the brighter side, I had to give two employees two very not-so-good evaluations and they are both leaving the branch for other opportunities within the Credit Union. The evals went WAY better than anticipated, which I'm very thankful for. Now I'm on to the next one... one more to go this month, hope it will go just as well...
So, while he's out at some motorcycle race thing tomorrow, I'll be stuck at home dying her hair, which I've never done before in my LIFE. I sure hope it doesn't turn neon green... *sigh*
FML...
While I'm the subject of feeling sorry for myself, Eric's still just spending spending spending and can't be STILL and do nothing for even one weekend. Tomorrow he's going to some motorcycle thing at some arena. Next weekend another ghosthunt. Maybe it's post holiday blues, maybe it's just par for the course, but it sure does feel like late Jan to early Mar suck for me historically speaking.
On the brighter side, I had to give two employees two very not-so-good evaluations and they are both leaving the branch for other opportunities within the Credit Union. The evals went WAY better than anticipated, which I'm very thankful for. Now I'm on to the next one... one more to go this month, hope it will go just as well...
Sunday, January 9, 2011
New Year, new me!
Well I started the year off by declaring I wasn't going to take any crap from the folks that are SUPPOSED to love and respect me.
I'm trying to stick to it, but it's just not...me....to be demanding, selfish, and not worrying/caring about anyone else.
I've decided I really can't let things get to me like they have in the past. Especially not Stephanie. I love her like my own daughter, but she drives me to the brink of insanity. And honestly, it's not so much her, as it is the interaction with her and Eric. He gives in to her every whim and it's just frustrating when he should be a parent to her, teaching her right and wrong. Coming down hard on her as he does on my kids. So ... to that end, I won't put up with it anymore. I'm staying out of her discipline, yet not allowing her to rule this house anymore either. It's the only way I'll stay sane. Eric and I got into it, I lost it, and I think now he understands where my breaking point is.
Still working on finances, and hope to have more paid off soon. Can't wait for the W2s so that I can get the taxes done, return in hand, and payoff more crap. I told him (YET AGAIN) that he cannot "buy now, pay later" any more.
Eric's mom is coming in February for a visit and to go to the monster truck show. We had a pretty great visit with her just before Christmas. We cleaned up her kitchen and Eric installed her ceiling fan and a new light fixture on the other side of the kitchen. She was quite pleased with it all I think judging by the emotional outpouring as we headed out on Christmas Eve to come back home.
Same day Eric and I got into my catharsis, my brother told us all he's getting a divorce. 10 years and his daughter's almost 6. Sad, but necessary. That marriage was over 4 years ago at a minimum, but it's still sad, and I am just praying that it'll be a smooth transition for everyone. They're both already "seeing" other people, and it seems quite amicable at the moment...hope it stays that way. My brother will be going along to the monster truck show with his daughter, his new girlfriend, and HER twin daughters. I'm giving up my ticket so she can go with her kids, with him. (what a sacrifice--not!) I was going to go just to spend time with Eric, Steph and his Mom, but I have ZERO desire to be there. I'll go get a pedicure that day instead! :)
Work continues to be a daily struggle for me just to WANT to be there. And I'm supposed to be the driving, motivating factor for the employees. It'll be 19 years that I've been with the Credit Union on March 9th. One more year, and I'll get another week of vacation. I feel like I should do something different with my life, but I have no clue what that would or even could be. I just feel trapped in so many ways in my life and that makes me sad. I should be happy. Happy to have a job, a family, a home, just...happy.
That bein' said, I'm not going to wallow in self-pity, or complain. This year is proving to be a challenge already, but one I'm ready for. The Chamber obligations are gone, time to focus on family and work. (Yes, in that order)
I did receive a HUGE blessing at work on Friday. One of my employees, who was WAY under-achieving in production goals, always coming in late, and just acting as though she didn't care--just going through the motions--was given an opportunity in another department. Her performance was to the point that I was literally going to have to fire her soon. The process of documenting her performance and putting her on an action plan was set to take place, and she got this other job. Now, I'll just note her performance deficiencies and tardiness in her evaluation and she'll move on. She has no idea how lucky she is to have gotten this job. No idea. I like her as a person, so it would have been particularly difficult to do, but guess that's what they pay me the big bucks for, huh??
I'm going to try and update this more regularly so that I can stay focused on positive things and get anything else "off my chest" before it becomes burdensome. Thank you dear blog for giving me this outlet...
I'm trying to stick to it, but it's just not...me....to be demanding, selfish, and not worrying/caring about anyone else.
I've decided I really can't let things get to me like they have in the past. Especially not Stephanie. I love her like my own daughter, but she drives me to the brink of insanity. And honestly, it's not so much her, as it is the interaction with her and Eric. He gives in to her every whim and it's just frustrating when he should be a parent to her, teaching her right and wrong. Coming down hard on her as he does on my kids. So ... to that end, I won't put up with it anymore. I'm staying out of her discipline, yet not allowing her to rule this house anymore either. It's the only way I'll stay sane. Eric and I got into it, I lost it, and I think now he understands where my breaking point is.
Still working on finances, and hope to have more paid off soon. Can't wait for the W2s so that I can get the taxes done, return in hand, and payoff more crap. I told him (YET AGAIN) that he cannot "buy now, pay later" any more.
Eric's mom is coming in February for a visit and to go to the monster truck show. We had a pretty great visit with her just before Christmas. We cleaned up her kitchen and Eric installed her ceiling fan and a new light fixture on the other side of the kitchen. She was quite pleased with it all I think judging by the emotional outpouring as we headed out on Christmas Eve to come back home.
Same day Eric and I got into my catharsis, my brother told us all he's getting a divorce. 10 years and his daughter's almost 6. Sad, but necessary. That marriage was over 4 years ago at a minimum, but it's still sad, and I am just praying that it'll be a smooth transition for everyone. They're both already "seeing" other people, and it seems quite amicable at the moment...hope it stays that way. My brother will be going along to the monster truck show with his daughter, his new girlfriend, and HER twin daughters. I'm giving up my ticket so she can go with her kids, with him. (what a sacrifice--not!) I was going to go just to spend time with Eric, Steph and his Mom, but I have ZERO desire to be there. I'll go get a pedicure that day instead! :)
Work continues to be a daily struggle for me just to WANT to be there. And I'm supposed to be the driving, motivating factor for the employees. It'll be 19 years that I've been with the Credit Union on March 9th. One more year, and I'll get another week of vacation. I feel like I should do something different with my life, but I have no clue what that would or even could be. I just feel trapped in so many ways in my life and that makes me sad. I should be happy. Happy to have a job, a family, a home, just...happy.
That bein' said, I'm not going to wallow in self-pity, or complain. This year is proving to be a challenge already, but one I'm ready for. The Chamber obligations are gone, time to focus on family and work. (Yes, in that order)
I did receive a HUGE blessing at work on Friday. One of my employees, who was WAY under-achieving in production goals, always coming in late, and just acting as though she didn't care--just going through the motions--was given an opportunity in another department. Her performance was to the point that I was literally going to have to fire her soon. The process of documenting her performance and putting her on an action plan was set to take place, and she got this other job. Now, I'll just note her performance deficiencies and tardiness in her evaluation and she'll move on. She has no idea how lucky she is to have gotten this job. No idea. I like her as a person, so it would have been particularly difficult to do, but guess that's what they pay me the big bucks for, huh??
I'm going to try and update this more regularly so that I can stay focused on positive things and get anything else "off my chest" before it becomes burdensome. Thank you dear blog for giving me this outlet...
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