Good stuff!

So I was talking to my good friend Gwynn the other day about my blog here. I admit this place had become my safe haven to let spew forth the most dark places I have been this year so far. And thank God I had this (and thank you, dear readers, for putting up with my rantings), for it has kept me sane during my moments of hopelessness and insanity.

And now for something completely different: Good stuff!

As much as I have ranted about HU, he really is a sweet and good man. Selfish at times? Sure. But also caring and wonderful at times too. Too often I focus on the negative and it overshadows the good so much that I temporarily lose sight of it. Just this past weekend, HU took John around for two hours to attach plastic bags to folks' doors to collect cans for Boy Scouts to give to food pantries in the area. I had to work. There was a time before that he wouldn't have been willing to do this task for me, but he's really trying to help out. I can see it. And I'm thankful to have him and his willingness now to help out. He's started paying for more things lately: dinners out, AT&T Uverse bill (he wanted to change from dish network that he used to pay for), got a $50 used monitor for the kids' computer just this eve. He's stopped spending so much on himself and his hobbies and has begun to help out with expenses here more. (he still does spend some on his stuff, but that's ok as long as he's helping at home too!) I think part of this change is having his daughter now living with her mom instead of here. As awful as it sounds, I think it may have something to do with some of it. No extra expenses for school, fundraisers, clothes, stuff that she "wants" but doesn't need but gets anyway, etc that came when she was living here. Not to say that's the entire reason for this new attitude in helping out, but I do sometimes think perhaps his focus is a bit more on the family as a whole and not just on Steph anymore.

John's really enjoying Scouts...and I'm REALLY glad. He needs the social interaction, and learning some lifeskills will be a plus for him as well! I hope he sticks with it for some time to come!

Michelle's going through her first big break up, but doing ok. Hit some very rough patches, but I'm thankful that we have some time together again. (is that bad of me??) I missed spending time with her...just sorry she has to go through so much pain so that she and I can get some time together. Her next boyfriend will NOT consume her life like this one did.

Job's going ok...though frustrating, I'm thankful to have a decent job.

More positive blogging coming soon! For now, sleep must come...