Not the best of days...what else is new

Sunday night HU and I got into a fight about, of all things, a picture I put up of my daughter and her boyfriend. Prom pic, SUPER nice pic of her, and I don't have many. HE didn't want it in the frame I put it in beacuse that was supposed to be for OUR kids and the boyfriend isn't OUR kid. Not part of our family. Whatever. HU doesn't like the boy because he (unknowingly on speaker phone one night while talking to my daughter) said "F.U." when he could hear HU in the background telling my daughter to get off the phone if they were just going to play around. Naturally, that's REALLY disrespectful of the boyfriend to say, but he's a KID. Haven't you ever said stupid things you wish you could take back!?? I know I have. *sigh* So...he's not welcome in our home, I can't put pictures of my daughter up if he's in them, and the tension goes on and on. It, quite frankly, sucks.

Well when we got into it Sunday night, I lost it. JUST LOST IT. I told HU he could take a long walk off a short pier if he thinks he's going to tell me what pictures of MY daughter I can and cannot display in my own home. Naturally, *I'M* the selfish one, given I know how he feels about this boy and I put it up anyway...I was just doing it to pick a fight. (yeah, right... like I need ANYMORE stress and aggrevation in my life?!? I think not... *sigh*)

Final compromise: I will put their prom pic in a different frame and replace with individual pics of OUR THREE KIDS only in the "tree" frame that's up there now. That's not good enough for him though... he decided that I should "display" it somewhere in HER room, where HE feels it's more appropriate. A lotta good that does ME...I'd never see it then. Course he never will either...which is his whole idea.

I've a right mind to display it at my computer desk where he has to walk by EVERY DAY to get to his own computer! >.< He just infuriates me some days.

I'm strapped for cash, he's spending like mad. I have two kids to support, he's not even PAYING child support to his ex right now and is SUPPOSED to be saving for airfare for when his daughter comes back to visit. Somehow, her plane ticket got put on my charge with the "promise" he would pay it. Haven't seen the $260 yet, but he does have $150 saved. I don't have enough for groceries and household bills, he's out buying computer parts and RC helicopter parts, new monitors and more "ghosthunting" supplies. I broke down crying this morning when he said he was going to the ATM to get money to buy "cookies" at work today for charity. You buy a cookie and give it to a co-worker who's done nice things or needs to be recognized. Here we go again...co-workers laying claim to his money taking precedence over needed supplies and items at home. I'm just sick of it and don't know what to do. I feel so trapped. I seriously can't get a part time job due to working full time already and having to take kids everywhere, but definitely need one. He's working TONS of overtime (about 8-10 hours a week) and not helping anymore than his usual $125/month contribution. I'm just tired of being the only financial support when he makes more money than he used to and could help out more.

Wishful thinking, oh well.